So here's the story I had just gotten back from a family reunion in Philadelphia. We had a blast we drove from Atlanta all the way to downtown Philly for the first time ever! I get back to work two days before the 4th of July. That morning I felt odd I kept having this reoccurring thought in my head of " Am I really going back here?"
I get to my office and walk to my department and notice that the lead data entry clerk's desk is cleaned out! I thought great he quit and I'll have to take on his work load as well as my own. Later, another coworker arrives and I emailed him and asked about the lead data entry clerk. Me: What happened to ----? Co-Worker: The week you were out the company did a bunch of layoffs and He was let go along with a few others.
Wow..wait! #thoughtbubble He had been employed there way longer than I, why was he let go instead of me? Good question and I was about to find out.
After working about four hours my supervisor walks to my desk and asked me to come to her office. Welp! Here we go I already knew I was as good and gone. We sat and in her office was the administrative assistant. She went over all the details to which I barely heard much of because all I could think of is how bitter sweet this moment was. Honestly at that point I was more than ready to move on but I'm also one that is afraid of change.
Fast forward to today and I have no clue what I want to do with my life. Anxiety peeks it's little head in and I have to admit this is not at all where I wanted to be in my life at 31 years old ( I'll be 32 next month) . My vision for my life was to be in a serious relationship or married with a family and career that I was proud of.
So what do you do when life doesn't turn out the way you've envisioned?
to be continued.
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