Matthew 3:14-15 (CEB)14 John tried to stop him and said, “I need to be baptized by you, yet you come to me?”15 Jesus answered, “Allow me to be baptized now. This is necessary to fulfill all righteousness.”So John agreed to baptize Jesus.
When there is a calling on your life it often times appears too big or you may feel unqualified. In my case my task is to be "support" somewhat of a counselor. I've tired to escape this title over the past few years by isolating myself, pushing people and away or just literally disappearing. I felt like I had nothing to offer because I was dealing with my own depression coupled with anxiety attacks and personal insecurities. What could I possibly have to offer with everything that I am already carrying? Who am I to console or give advice to anyone? I'm tired!
The position of support is a heavy task and lifting others up over time can leave you with sore arms and and a drained spirit . I just wanted to stop I didn't want to hear anymore bad news or deal with anyone else's issues. So I successfully pushed everyone away and I currently I have no friends. I have to admit that as a text book introvert this isn't completely awful for me BUT I do recognize the need to connect with others and how good friends can enrich your life. It's important to know who is enriches your life and who constantly subtracts. But that's a whole blog post in and of itself!
Currently I am trying to take full advantage of this "unemployed to self employed" season. I'm not confident that I want to be self employed honestly but I know that I want to be in control of my time and my efforts. I come to realize that every time I start a new journal, blog or whatever it always turns into this. A devotional/ Free Therapy " things" but I never intend for it to be. I have no qualifications other than life experience and the portion of wisdom God has gifted me with. So with what I have and this free time I am going to follow the leading of the holy spirit and allow God to move me, change my mind and my perspective on what I have to offer. This is what I am supposed to be doing. I am a counselor , I am a cheerleader that is my mission and I can no longer run from it. I am it and it is me; I don't know where this will take me or if I'll always use this platform or if it will evolve into something else down the line like a book or something . What I do know is that in order to grow and move forward I must allow myself to be open enough to be God led and not Lesli led . I must fully trust God and know that He has me in this space at this time for a reason.
Pray for me and I'll pray for you ..
Love,
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